I can't carry on like this, this is getting so hard to live.?

I cannot explain my condition, but I'll try, I have been in a limbo between what's real and what's not, if time is even real. I hear things in my sleep, I was prescribed Seroquel but I'm afraid to take it! I'm on Klonopin 3mg a day! I have these symptoms of going out of my mind, I have these delusions, sometimes feel like I'm just existing, not living! I have severe insomnia, depression at times that is horrible! Short term memory loss, afraid to go outside, afraid of dieing with a seizure or something. I don't have seizures, but I'm afraid of having one! I feel so empty and hopeless, thinking about suicide sometimes, what is wrong with me? I just feel like nothing is real and I have Psychotic episodes, mean as hell, I can't go on living like this!!!!!!